Selfish

as you sit by the King on his throne
down below, i sit and feel alone.
so many things with you i wish i could share
yet all i can do is sit here and stare.
days have turned into weeks
and most days i feel the defeat.
i miss you more than my heart can stand
it's in those days i feel you take my hand.
the pain eases a little at a time
until i begin to feel just fine.
memories wash over me
it's then when my heart feels free.
you'd think it would get easier after a year
but your death...your death for me is still so clear.
i hate that you're not here to see what i see
to watch the kids grow up in front of me.
i know you're watching from up above
for down here i feel the love.
i know it's selfish to want you here
it'll always be like this year after year.
on the one day you took your last breath
is the one day i really hate death.
so tonight and tomorrow selfish i will be
after tomorrow i'll let my heart be free.

Te amo y te extrano!