stolen glances

Stolen glances from across the room
Our eyes meet, we can't look away
The world stops dead, only you and I exist
Distance closes between us as the desire rises higher
This feeling I can't describe, I see it in your eyes
I feel it deep within, down to my core
My feet move across the floor, closer to you I have to be
Within this trance, we begin to dance
On my neck I feel your breath, as my body you slowly caress
The fire rising deep within, seen through our devilish grins
Harder and faster my heart pounds, in hopes to later have you bound
To think it started with stolen glances from across the room
Bet your ass I'll make you my groom.

man he used to be

I miss the man he used to be
The father who loved wholeheartedly
Struggles have come and gone
Making the days and nights seem long
A marriage that came to an end
It was one they just couldn't mend
Two daughters left to the unknown
Having to figure things out on their own
Closer and closer the daughter's became
Having to work through their own pain
Good or bad choices had to be made
On others, it didn't help to place blame
Father, with another, finally found happiness
But the daughter's were still a mess
With a heavy heart, the oldest moved on
Leaving the younger to feel all she loved were gone
Years and years came and went
Putting all emotions to the test.
A family of her own the oldest created
Not fully realizing the sister's relationship slowly faded
I miss the way it used to be
When all three were happy
A father who laid hallmark cards to be found
But now, to his other family he is bound
One conversation is all it took
To the core, their anger shook
Words of anger are so fleeting
And leaves the heart lie bleeding
When's the time to give in?
Do either really win?
The sister's relationship flourishes and grows
While the one with father is still on hold
Hopefully a meeting in the middle will soon begin
Before it's too late and this family comes to an end.

First day jitters!

I swear my first day back in college was like being in high school again. The first day and it's jitters...ugh!
So I was so excited to be back in school finally, doing something I believe I am really going to enjoy doing. It's been a while since I have been in a classroom where I wasn't getting after students (I work at a high school-AP secretary).
This is my last week at the high school, so I am doing a split shift. I hoped to get out of there by 9:45 but received an important phone call and I had to take it. So now, it's 9:55 and I gots to go!
I go by the house, totally unprepared to pick up my book bag, my books, and phone. Class starts at 10:30... and I am on the way.
I drive and some stupid person pulls in front of me on a road of 60mph and is going slower than molasses... what the .... ugh! I'm gonna be late! So I say a quick prayer for patience and understanding... after all the class will still be there, hours are 1030-315.
Wow, the clouds are awfully dark, hope it doesn't rain yet. Please, Please, Please just wait until I am IN the building! PLEASE!
So i finally make it to the college and wow, the rain has stayed away just long enough for me to get in the building...yay me!
DAMMIT...no freakin' ass parking! Oh wow, finally! It's in BFE, but hey it's a parking spot. Five minutes to go... I open the door and

BAM!

The rain POURS, I mean LITERALLY POURS down as if someone poured a cooler of ice cold water over my head. Dammit, I quickly shut the door. WAIT, I have an umbrella somewhere... (and if you know me, you know there is practically a jungle in my vehicle). THINK Stephanie, think. Where is it???
So I throw back the driver's seat, crawl to the 2nd row seats and plop down. Looking, looking, nope, dammit, I can't find it! Frustrated, I kick the stuff on the floor...the kid's CRAP!
OOOOH, there it is... I get the 'brella and try open the door on the left side, RAIN, nothing but RAIN... pouring down in a side sweep throwing my door open and practically taking my arm off. SHUT THE DOOR..... shit, what am I gonna do? So I get the 'brella, partially open it and am ready to attack! Throw the door open, thrust the 'brella out, and get under it, pulling my huge ass book bag.
NOT EVEN TWO STEPS.....already, am SOAKED. I turn to the Durango, and grab the towel I had seen.
Running, running, and SLIDE... shit I almost fell on my ass... THIS IS SO NOT THE FIRST DAY I PICTURED!
Finally make it to the building... pants soaked so much that my undies are too; my shirt? totally soaked for the exception of my RIGHT side (arm ONLY), back...soaked. DAMMIT.. really, I have to walk in there looking like this? sheeeesh! not a happy camper. Dry myself off as much as possible and I trek up the stairs... hell at least it felt like i was climbing up a mountain.
One step, two step, and finally there's the class.
I walk straight in, no eye contact, no eye contact... how embarrassing...soaked literally to the bone... walking in with my huge book bag, umbrella, and TOWEL... wth? EMBARRASSING!
A quick look up, and the second row, there's a seat, second to the last. AAAH...finally, I made it!

NOT!!!

I begin to look around after getting the guy next to me wet, NOT KNOWING, i was rubbin' all up on him with my wet arm... yeah, he let me know.... "so yeah, it's pouring outside?", "yes" i say. "pouring down". "yeah, i guess so (as he brushes the water off HIS ARM). ahhh hell...blush a bit, "sorry". smile, smile, all cordial, i get towel, and dry off a bit more. EMBARRASSING!
I begin to look around again, and oh dang, look, he has the wrong book, Microbiology! HEH! Ummm, wait, she has the wrong book too....Microbiology, and the guy next to me? Microbiology... panic starts to set in, OH SHIT.... girl next to me...MICRO-BIOLOGY! "ummm, excuse me, is this Microbiology?" "yes, it is". Smack my head. "oh wow, are you in A&P? they moved to another room."
Shit! Gather my things and squish on out and look at the door I so absentmindedly walked past and read the SIGN! Moved to S205!
DAMMIT!
Finally I make it in, 20 minutes late!!!

Yeah...FIRST DAY JITTERS MY ASS..... Freakin' NIGHTMARE!

Tomorrow has to be better!

sas 06.07.10

My Turn

Out of sight, out of mind huh?
But when you see me, you wish you were mine.
No commitment for you, you say-
But when we are together, you sure don't act that way.
All loving & caring, even touchy, feely-
But when all is said & done, it's like I've been dreaming.
So like me and you, time comes and goes,
And boy does it get old!
Well, now it's my turn!
Out of sight, out of mind-
It suits me just fine!
For when *you* come around-
I'll be touchy, feely, loving & caring;
But commitment, from me, it won't be found!
The tables have turned-
And now you ask why?
Simply put, it's my turn this time around.

Foolish Me

How foolish I've been
To think that something between us could begin
You've been hurt in the past
Well so have I;
But since life goes fast
The pain quickly subsides.
Mind games, so many find easy to play
But the heart, for some, is what gets in the way.
My heart's door can't easily be closed as it can for you
But you can trust that what it holds for you is true.
As the time moves on, for one, the feelings grow strong
It's just a shame when they're not returned and they can't be undone.
A new adventure for me awaits in the midst
For his feelings he just won't admit.
I can see them there when we touch
But when it's all over - the truth is -
It really wasn't that much!
Just a small glimpse of what could be
In actuality- we could have lived happily.
A man's heart is sometimes hard to get
When he's been jaded, and is filled with so many regrets
Because it's just too much to take on -
I'll pick up my heart and move it along.
sanchez 7.6.06